Something is not very right, but we are hanging in there.
There are more 'strained' moments, at least in my view. There are more frustrated moments. And there are definitely more silent moments.
Are we heading toward the cooling off of a relationship? Is our communication thoroughly breaking down? Seems to be, though I hope not.
I wonder what's so addictive about a damn phone that one cannot let go, and what's so big deal that the other cant just forget about.
At least from my perspective, I really have enough of such an addiction. I am seeing more of the other party settlinf down at the comfort of the phond and see nothing else happening at the peripherals.
I gave one or two clear indications and tonnes of indirect hints. But the through is, either they are all not clear enough to get into someone's head, or the addiction has become too ingrained.
When there were two of us, I could just give a head shake and get on with doing things. Now with three of us, I occasionally have the urge to break some glasses to get my message across.
It is clearly affecting our relationship, again, AT LEAST fron my view. The other party is likely to still be hallucinating under the great influence of technological addiction.
What else can I do? I want to just manage things on my own, live as though I am managing things alone. Maybe by doing this, I will feel less bothered by the other party's indifferent attitude. He can continue to live in his own world while I live in mine, and my little one. This is definitely a bad choice for a relationship but I dont know what else to do.
Both of us are extremely poor communicators - one waits for the other to open mouth, while the other keeps things down.
Will this be my life for the rest of my remaining life? Or will we cut this short, either by making things better, or in the worse case, throwing in our towels?
Have been wanting to organise En's wardrobe for a super long time but just didnt get to it. Today I had a day to rest at home but couldnt sleep, so I decided to start with a little reorganising.
Packed out lots of her little items - swap, rompers, bibs, mittens, booties, caps, pants which all are too small liao. Those that are clearly old, i have to throw them away. Those that are pretty decent, i have kept them aside for anyone with a little baby and can use them.
Clearing these stuff made me recall the time En was just so small. More than 2 years have passed and she has grown up to be a big little girl now. A tinge of sadness having to throw those old clothings. :(
Today's the One Community Walk day organised by the People's Association.
It seemed then that all the childcare centres and kindergartens under PCF were also participants, directly or indirectly.
En's school gave us some tickets for rides and games. So we brought En this morning for a different exposure.
The little gal was in love with the Thomas and friends train ride. She had 3 rides! One of which was with her good friend in school, Chloe. The gals met at the train ride venue and ended up moving about together - breakfast with Chloe's parents and walking home together.
Little gal was dead beat when she reached home and it didnt take her long to zzzxx right after her milk at 12pm!! And slept till 10 minute to 4pm.
Thought it was a nice morning to spent with little gal though we thought the event was a little wasted in that the q was very long for most popular rides and games, so we really weren't in a good mood to queue for all. Moreover we did not have coupons for some of the items, like the balloons.
But anyhow, glad for the opportunity to exposure little gal to something different.
What have I been doing from them till now? Busy with Baby En En, with work, with life, with everyone else except for 'me time'.
I have moved into a new job since 1 Feb. Much more peaceful...Am hoping to hang in here for a while.
And how has my little gal been? Had been on and off with flu, cough, fever, viral/bacterial infections for the past months. She had just recovered from the last bout of infections. Hopefully she can get a little stronger now.
En En is now walking though not fully steady yet. And is blabbering more than ever! Hahahaha.....
My bonus every working day is to see her at infant care and bring her home.
Someone commented that I am fortunate to be working in this prestigious tower.
I replied that one cannot realistically conclude an environment by judging an architecture. You have to be in it to see the spiders weaving the webs, monkeys throwing arrows, the dogs catching dogs, the cats scratching cats, rats trying to fit into lions' costumes, lions eating the squirrels, vampires playing frisbees with spikes, maggots finding their next victims......
I enjoy the simple things in life, eg peace and serenity whenever I can steal some, playing with the little animals I come across along my path and what have you.
Life need not be too complicated. Simplicity ain't too bad.